&nb sp; In the winter passes through day
2008 Xia Qiu had sexual intercourse the rain continuous day, on neighbor's several high school unfamiliar face writes all over has been arrogant and is proud. They put together that many years to flow the university written notice which many perspirations made to give to the respective father, but I secretly a political line report card Tibet nobody's corner. Therefore, I sad entire cold winter. “the painful childhood, powerhouse's cradle” a philosopher sighed like this. Certainly, all childhood pain's people can become the powerhouse by no means that but speaking of the inborn sentimental countryside youth, along with the age growth, childhood all sorts of tribulations, together with to the happy ideal happy expectation, completely deeply is buried by poor me in subconscious life fault. For many years, vowed track down the literature dream eagerly anticipates is surmounting the life the wind and rain, roars a group joyous song, is being infected seven color illusions crabbedly with the poor gray and the life. However, in this calendar for many years, vowed tracks down the literature dream eagerly anticipates is surmounting the life the wind and rain, roars a group joyous song, is being infected seven color illusions crabbedly with the poor gray and the life. However, in this calendar for many years, vowed tracks down the literature dream eagerly anticipates is surmounting the life the wind and rain, roars a group joyous song, is being infected seven color illusions crabbedly with the poor gray and the life. However, in this historical nobody's corner, in my mind forever in the memory which such section remembers with eternal gratitude. in 2008 let me understand truly anything was called the college entrance examination, brutal was any meaning, this year brutal too sorrowful the later winter became does not have the light even disorder gloomily stained. Therefore I have been thinking deeply about anything to call to hope that a son will grow up to be successful, hope for the daughter to grow up into a phoenix.
in June, 2008, the father is pointing at this piece of yellowing land: “place which poor does not lift a finger to help in this, your ancestry had lived the place, generation of hopes that a son will grow up to be successful living in hope. The ancestry have not been able to go out this place, are you who and so on depends. But, studied on you many year money you to spend several thousand, what did you bring back to for the father.”My very waist is shipping out is without turning a hair the appearance which the heart does not jump to hold stems from thought that can let the father face high light overflow the color several dozens certificates and hundreds of thousands character work collections. Who knows, this chapter of father was really muddleheaded, must regard as that by me the treasure the work collection destroys the danger. I anxious fled seize have held in the bosom, has given the father the back. Was mad the father clenches teeth actually curls upwards the mouth increasingly to make an effort to scold: “writes an article can refer to it eats meal can work as the money to spend, neighbor's several student you ignore a proper occupation cannot make a name, you opened the family to lose shamelessly, your this did not make every effort to succeed the thing rolled to me, never wanted to come back!”
Today is defeated does not mean that entire life henceforth then gloomily does not have the light, the setback is wealth, the experience has, must survive on dries the first tear. At that time, I had understood truly the college entrance examination resembles the overwhelming remnantly reality, why presses up to our life. The so-called hope is bigger disappointedly is bigger, therefore I rather strangle the hope in the cradle, even if one that diligently has written the participative article.
However, in summer by eight month fall breeze blow cool time. Lowers the head I who turns the book only then to discover that oneself anything cannot study, originally study that knowledge passed through the recently sorrow and joy twists and turns to be able to be left over does not have what technique content thing. The key difficulty also needs to study, this lets my incomparable big. I had said I am not the study material, sometimes I frown, transfers hand's in pen very fast, actually also cannot make together the physics and chemistry topic, I do not have this talent, is this.
At this time, I thought is really very bothersome. Even if brought the written notice also to have anything to use. This time, father's sincere words let me rouse all of a sudden are also actually unclear, therefore: “the human think many matters, but some matters only then only then truly grasp in your hand time it is you, does not want to let you originally then read, but has the written notice to place in hand's day feeling not to be dissimilar. Therefore you choose.”
Evening, I lie down in the bed is careful is very chaotic, tosses about also with difficulty goes to sleep. When I turn around once again, saw accidentally the ground scattered in disorder textbook, these already the yellowing book cover cancelled my many recollections, in the heart all sorts of feelings actually also with difficulty describes. I want to ask itself suddenly, regarding this kind of hard to solve sentiment, I is at heart one what kind of manner? May flee finally, actually discovered oneself heart of hearts somewhat indistinct improper, I really has been resigned to? Such choice indicated that I already gave up the initial dream?
Matter always like this. In this still sultry summer, I has taken up had cast couple days ago almost aside the book bag and the textbook, was having in whole family's hope and heart's helpless has stepped the college entrance examination this ruggedly, but muddy journey.
The time is Yi Shi a section, in the winter arrives once again, the north winter appears especially hard crisp. The early morning has not seen the luminous black backdrop is likely the immersion in the deep sea, the pine falls on the telephone pole is tying the attractive rime. With such morning brushed past daily, thus is not very excited.
This winter's season, the very few some people glanced through the magazine, said accurately was already did not have the leisure time. But I am still reading "Seed" "Belle-letter" "China Campus literature". Thus, the high three evenings study by oneself the nature to shrink are very short. I remembered that in a prose said now middle school's teacher and principal fearfulness very, actually sits the student who studies in the classroom is only then more fearful.
under late studies by oneself, the campus was already peaceful down. Invades as if soaks in the ink the general night, the shadow elongates along with the street light dark light reduces. Stands under the street light, the shadow used the writing brush to exaggerate a layered spot probably, my tight circle, on the street did not have the vehicles, a sky bottle like to wash, the cold wind jabbed into the heart, this winter was too really unendurable. I am afraid very much, I fear disappointedly, I feared that expects the face facing the father.
Likes in the person spirit which writes how many somewhat being different with the average man, high three approached as if advanced me a basement well, although blue sky white clouds like yesterday happiness like that but the under foot was actually stepping on could not wipe the mud, on the body has hung all over the pollution dew. I thought that I am a normal person, is only the nerve is quite sensitive, therefore uses this sensitive nerve to reflect I bump the thing which touches, therefore had the writing writing.
Under perhaps in the high three travel fatigue bury we, like Zhang Ailing writing that time lagger. The colored season's life should be Xia Huapan is brilliant, although complain compared to satisfied many, loses compared to many which obtains, no matter you are the top-notch young writer who is held by others keeps aloof, remains obscure to the peon who is neglected by others, will always find one to belong to your space, others could not replace, only because of you, but gorgeous position. Then calculated thin, from first time submitted a piece of writing for publication to the present to have three years. Although like kite broken line, but I will earn a living by pen silently, will track down silently.
Because occupies the school days, writes an article goal pure many, is not to earn how many payments for published piece to maintain the livelihood, is only wants to prove itself, wants the human who likes to look own writing, person appreciation which likes. Therefore I want to let my writing clean somewhat, clean somewhat, probably our 17 years old are again clean and are transparent, the immersion is only the youth pure sentiment and romantic.
The hour glass reverses, the time fluctuation, the time may not be passes gradually, our arid life, one second elongated probably for one year, in several days I sighed deeply this years too to offend somebody repeatedly, have wasted time my colored season time passage. In winter's campus will still have the looking for food pigeon, the sunlight hits slanting on the pink classroom building. May see like this daily thing, because loses the elastic day after day heart, but is not taken into consideration, still air-dries is glittering, with the expression which exaggerates very much said that high three retake courses is the chronic suicides simply.
In an instant, the high school three years, soon finished. To the geomancy transferred in turn, we compete the intense principle regular professional training, qualified the human very little had is redundant.
On 2009 New Year's Day's time, here has had an only snow, has covered my deeply worried heart, only leaves behind snow white, is mixing with the light sadness. Is also this day, went to yearn for already long former capital Beijing, went time, Beijing's wind welcome me, what but had not thought that that wind thorn has awaked unexpectedly my cerebrum, then awakened here is Beijing suddenly
Really to Beijing, has taken to me possibly also to have more things, but I happy did not get up, in promulgates in the assembly hall, met pile of people, was only opens the note to sign, has known several friends, therefore casually asked the son to sit down.
As for afterward top-notch young writer, was really imposing is scared me. When reads aloud the winner's list, in I also immerse in winter's flaw think, when after the side friend has called one, I have only then heard the school name, therefore vacant gaining ground, some little time only then understood that has had any matter. The result also was only ignorant ground has held a certificate, shook hand, has taken the signature book, then got down.
Afterward, I silently am then looking around Mr. Xiao Fuxing that affection and rich the extremely individuality face, looks that I have remembered in village father ......
2009 in January regarding me is unforgetable, that cold winter, will let me understand future life. Similarly the writing is also I lives a brand-new beginning, because seeks an outlet, I will only then sprout will have written integrate the life part of thoughts, therefore has written the present. Hereafter in one year also in does not stop writes writes, is industrious simply is a model worker. But, mails out the draft likes a stone dropped into the sea returns the potluck simply compared to the potluck, the classroom thesis also as always height deep fan. Similarly is also so, has received "Chinese Young Writer Class" at that time merely the written notice. Although once sprouted “has met the god deicide to meet Buddha to kill Buddha to keep off me to die” the thought that but the present will therefore also become maturer.
2009 winter end, I very calm sit at home am guessing the day which the winter passes through. The general person is this, angry, astonished, puzzled, ache, disappointed, after very sentimental will get down deeply endures patiently will also let the human burst into tears in the cold winter!
Yes, two generation of people, two tearfuls, I said that I am walking like this, whatever the tears flow through the entire land, the shop becomes a road, is not only the literature path, but also has my life, my future.
Then, every day is accompanying enthusiastic scolding with the tears impact noise, next, is full and is powerful, that is the day which the winter passes through.
Author synopsis: Zhang Yu studies, male, pen name: Snowy peak. on March 2, 1991 was born in Gansu Jingyuan, presently for Beijing Writing Academic society member, Jingyuan County flower season literature society director the organization head concurrently edition, "Hunan Campus Literary arts" the magazine company special student edits, Baiyin "Silver Daily paper" society student reporter, 2009 Chinese young writer class student, world Chinese people young Writer's association member, Hubei Province young Writer's association member. Its work once attained 2007, 2008 “the century cup” the campus literature art big game first prize, the sixth session “the Ye Shengtao cup” the national middle-school student innovates the thesis big game third prize, 14th session, the 15 session “the magical brush cup” the national elementary and middle school students thesis grand prize contest second prize, welcomes Olympic Games “the East China Normal university Two Attached middle school cups” "Thesis Communication" the national middle-school student thesis big game nation third prize, the fifth session “Xihu” the cup nation young people literary arts big game honorable mention, the first session “Hua Renbei” the entire national essence kernel young writer title, in 2008 “moves toward Lu Xun” large-scale to have the prize solicitation activities second prize, “new person cup” third national elementary and middle schools campus literatureThe big game first prize and so on, the work sees here and there in "Ulan" "Silver Daily paper" "Chinese Campus Education Newspaper" "Thesis Weekly" "the Xihu Literature" "Language Newspaper" "Thesis Review" "Hunan Campus Literary arts".
